slayings, killings, and outbursts

I had an unhappy outburst last night at home. The kind where you just think you're gonna be thrown off the balance from walking on a thin line between sanity and senselessness (if there ever is a term). And I regret every bit of it. Why - because I realize how selfish it really is. The only self-indulgence, or if you may - selfishness - I can possibly tolerate is my blog.

I wish I was even less selfish. Because for the past months - and years - more & more people here in the Philippines experience more senselessness than anyone. As Inquirer succintly published from this article, "[at] least 25 church people, including 10 pastors and priests, were among the 864 activists summarily executed since President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo took office in 2001, according to the National Council of Churches in the Philippines (NCCP) and Karapatan."

I've never had anything against the Arroyo Administration until this. I can't believe some people are even blind to it, like my aunt who constantly complains about the rallies being unreasonable because GMA has been, according to her, after all a good president by putting up infrastructures here & there.

I cannot, for the life of me, understand it. Since when did roads and buildings mean more than human life? I may probably be the nth person to say this - but I wish that these kidnappings, killings, and her kind of administration will stop. The latter being the priority.